Why Capture Childhood?
Once upon a time there was a woman. Pregnant with her first child, she had her life planned out. She was going to have this beautiful little person in her life and her days would melt into blissful babydom, gazing upon his beautiful face, going for walks in the beautiful sunshine. Only educational activities and healthy food would fill the days and nights would be full of sleep.
And then, 5 weeks early, a little boy arrived in her life like a bullet ripping through her idea of what motherhood would be. He was an intense person, who spent a lot of his first 2 years crying. She was not prepared for this. Hindsight and experience can give many explanations for this, but at the time the woman realised 2 things:
- She was not cut out for stay at home motherhood
- Sanity had to be found and quick.
Not due to go back to work until the baby was a year old, the woman had no idea what the hell to do with the depression with which she met every day. His life, her life were whizzing by in a black blur. And so, she picked up her camera. Focussing on the little things, the happy moments, the joy, she was able to get through the week. Seeing his big blue eyes, his long eye lashes, his love of cars, she was able to see more than just an upset little boy, she saw the joyous, clever child underneath. All of the things that were there already, but she had somehow missed. She got through the weeks and then the months and then the years.
Looking back, it seems strange to think there was a day I wasn’t a photographer, like it was another person or a different lifetime. The mere thought that I once travelled through life without a camera in my diaper bag seems odd. Now, taking pictures is very much part of me and our family and now my work. It is a form of self medication for the hard days and a wonderful reflection of the good ones . It is not uncommon for me to lay in bed at night and look through the picture on the blog or on flickr and remember.
But more than that, photography has become a way to focus. To see my children and my life with them through the lens with more focus than I sometimes see them without.